Things might get weird around here for a bit.
I am needing a reset button. There is a vision in my head for what I want Dearest Someday to be. It is is kind of the same but kind of different. It is an approach to my business, a feeling I want to evoke with my work.. and I am going to try my hardest, day by day to get it there. It needs be a reality.. my passion for everything is insisting on it! ha!
What I have come to realize, is it isn’t something I can make happen overnight. It isn’t a “hey, it’s the new year.. this is what my business plan is!” kind of thing. Maybe if I started a year ago and had it all ready to roll out. But I didn’t, and I don’t want to wait a year. I get too excited to keep things behind the scenes like that! haha!
I do know this.. some changes are coming, the creative side of me is dying for it all to come out. I myself am a new person.. well, I am still me… just different. Well no, actually I might be entirely changed now haha! I need what I do, and what I share to reflect that. This website and blog has been left behind. I feel very much that a lot of it is the old me. So it has been hard to update it.. if that makes sense.
After all, blogging was what I did first.. before everything else. Before new passions and career choices… before life changes, it was there from the beginning. I was thinking about that the other day. About how long it has been. I think my daughter was around 3.. she is 16 now! Wow. That is too hard to comprehend. Have any of you been around here that long?
There are so many thoughts, and so many ideas in my head, that I feel as if it may explode. I know that is cliche.. but it is true. I need to get it out. I need to share the process of it all.. I need the accountability that making things public brings haha! Sad, but really really true. For me anyway. Some ideas have been floating around much too long.. it truly is time to make it happen.
Now to sound really cliche.. my someday is now! hahahaha!
I am sharing this photo because it represents so much.
The mountains have become a place for me to clear my head, to get in touch with my soul.. the mountains are my reset button. It was a couple years ago now, the kiddos and I made our way out for some hiking. Just the three of us. My first Mother’s Day as a single mom.. it meant so much for me to share it with them. To show them I was capable.. to show me I was capable of being that mom. I needed to get us outside of our little bubble and start doing something I had always wanted us to do. It seems like such a little thing now, but at that time.. it was pretty huge. Since then, the mountains have a very special place in my heart, even more than before. It truly is where I feel most at peace.
That my friends is what I want Dearest Someday to feel like. Nice and peaceful, not the chaos of thoughts. I want it to be me.. the new me. My soul. It is close.. sooo close.
But sometimes baby steps become the biggest leap of all. xoxo